Big girls don't cry.

So a few people have been asking me what I want for turning seventeen next week.

Hmm, I don't know, really. Honestly, I want...to not turn seventeen.

Originally, I think my mental wishlist was as long as the red carpet that Amelia and Jasvin worked on together alone for ten hours magically appeared during Hari Guru 2011.

But.

I don't know what's gotten into me lately.

Is it possible to be so lethargic, yet so motivated?

So estatic, yet so depressed?

Wide awake, yet so tired?

So relaxed. Yet so tensed.

Its like the calm before the storm.

I don't believe in turning back time, or changing the past, but there are these rare moments of reflection when I really wish I could go back to... kindergarten. Of all places. =.=" When things were a lot simpler than they are now.

Anyway, back to the present.

I decided to give myself the best birthday present ever.

24 hours of sleep from sunday 00:00 till monday 00:00.

Isn't that like awesome?

But then my mum shot down the whole idea and insisted we go out for the usual family dinner and then Xiao asked me to hang out with her.

So yeah my sleeping plans are ruined.

But its okay.

Oh yeah. My wishlist.

Macbook Pro, IPhone 4, and as LipopLeow reminded me today...a dark mahogany mare.

In no particular order.

But then Leowlipop had to very tactlessly remind me that all of the above is virtually impossible, especially since the last one has a seven digit price tag.

And truth is, I don't even remember why I want those things anymore. So...insignificant.

Lately, everything seems a lot less important.

I wonder why.

So if you peeps are just dying to get me something for 3rd July, you can buy me lunch.

Who says there's no such thing as a free lunch in this world?

Let's prove the world wrong.

~SP

P.S. I can't make you understand what you just don't understand.

P.P.S. Anyone wanna help me write a 750 word long essay?

P.P.P.S. Anyone at all? T_T

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I still believe in

I'm falling to pieces.

They say bad things happen for a reason.
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding.

I'm falling to pieces.

Congratulations

I don't know which was worse. My own disappointment, or the look on your face.

I feel like I let you...us...down.

Yeah, this sucks.









I can't express myself. That's the problem.

Fighting inertia

I have been sleeping early and waking up early.
I have been doing my homework.
I have not been scolded by my parents for abusing overusing the internet.
I have no life.

Let me explain.

I have been sleeping early in the morning and waking up early in the afternoon.

I have been doing my homework but that stupid pile has not gone down. Its like trying to shrink Mt. Everest to freaking Kinabalu.

I have not been scolded by my parents for overusing the internet because I've been using it at unearthly hours. Like when they sleep. XD Seriously, I don't touch the internet during the day. =O

I have no life. No explanation needed.

The cons of developing an abnormal bedtime cycle.


*12:00pm approx*

you: go to the toilet and wash your face
me: yes, going now..

*10 seconds later*

you: you're still lying on your bed right?
me: yea T_T


I can't sleep when I'm awake. I can't wake up when I'm asleep.

Its like...like...inertia.

I hate physics!

~SP

P.S. Siapa nak pergi MTV World Stage?

P.P.S. I hate boxes. T_T

P.P.P.S. Boxes can go to **** seriously.

P.P.P.P.S. Nah, just kidding. =P

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Edit: Blogger just screwed up all my fonts. Too lazy to edit it again. Use highlight.

Or just don't read.

Counting sheep.

I'm sleep deprived.

ZzZzzzZ.

Because I've been sleeping at 5...6...for the past few days. AM, btw. That's like...an hour before sunrise.

Stupid horror movie. After watching Insidious, I stalked James Wan on wikipedia and read through all 7 plots of SAW. And then I went through every single thing on the Insidious film website.

Hence my sleep deprived condition.

I'm dying to watch SAW.

But I think I'll die from lack of sleep if I do...so maybe its better to hold off for awhile. Until like after SPM when I'm actually allowed to die.

SucksPM. So true. This is too good not to share. No, I didn't invent this awesome word. Credit goes to someone who is a lot less awesome than I am.

Gotta catch some shut eye.

~SP

P.S. Rule no. 209

P.P.S. My =O levels are a whole lot more epic.

P.P.P.S. I don't think I can sleep tonight...

I just realised I forgot to say...

Lets see, we bumped into Christie, Xiao, Gwen, Eevonne, Ben, Dylan, Ivan, a few other people whose names I don't remember and a whole lot of ex-SBSians whom I didn't even recognise.

In no particular order.

Its a small world after all.

And in that small world, everybody flocks to Pavilion.

Stupid poster is in French or something.

Anyway it says "from the creators of SAW & Paranormal Activity... INSIDIOUS". (no I can't read french. its common sense.)

So worth watching. So, so, so, SO worth it. For several reasons.

1. Scared the crap out of me.
2. Its from the makers of SAW.
3. Scared the crap out of Hazman.
4. Its from the makers of Paranormal Activity.
5. Scared the crap out of Siew Yan.

Quote her. "Vicki, can you teman me to the toilet????? I need to...etc.."
Yes, that was after Insidious. Her badass reputation is gone. ^^

In her defence, the movie was really terrifying. It wasn't as scary as I expected it to be, but it sure as hell frightened the...hell out of me. Although I wasn't really terrified.

I mean, the movie was scary, but I didn't really feel the full scare effects...am I making sense...?

Moral of the story... don't take photographs & don't go to sleep. T_T both of which I love doing. No sleep, no life. T.T Literally.

Anyone looking for a good scare should check this ou- ohh, why am I even saying this when I know for a fact that most of the people who read my blog don't watch horror movies?

I shall go torment somebody now with my inability to sleep after watching such movies. XD

~SP

P.S. I didn't scream...I yelped. There's a difference. Big, big difference. Go google it. X)

P.P.S. I wanted to but I can't yet and anyway eventually I will.

 The wait forever part was a joke. =P

P.P.P.S. And when you said that, all I wanted to do was burst into tears and cry.

P.P.P.P.S. ...thank you. =)