From the inside out...

Vicki, why don't you just go home and beat yourself up?





'Cause you bloody deserve it.

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Its a test, its a test. Its always a test.

Don't lose it, don't blow it, don't... fail.

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I miss the brutal honesty and blatant remarks that used to come from this blog.

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I miss the sunshine on my face.

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I hate heartburn. One attack leaves you crippled on the floor clutching your chest; breathing, but hurting.

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I got to get it in order. I've got to rein it in before I lose control. I need to get it in the order it used to be. I need to do it again...

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I need to stop muttering on my blog. Its making me out to be a lunatic.





But I'm still quite sane though.

I think.


P.S. ....Oh, my soul cries out.

P.P.S. Dear God, can You please make my chemistry homework answers miraculously appear on my book?

P.P.P.S. Okay, You won't. I'll just go do it now then.

P.P.P.P.S. I know its somewhere out there. I just need to find it. I just need to...find...it...


Note to self: Stop muttering on blog.

You STILL owe me a Christmas present, seaweed brains.

Good luck tomorrow, sleepyhead!

Don't screw up. =)

Can we pretend that-

Mum: Heehee, so I saw the SMS that *insert you-know-who's name* sent you.

Vicki: Shutup...

Mum: How do you feel? =)

Vicki: Hmph, go away...

Ahhhh noooo, she's turning into another Christie/Pauline/Kelly!

I'm gonna have a stroke if this keeps up! =O

Help. Squeak.

Being an idiot.

I am swamped with homework.

Like omg-please-help-me-ahhh-nooo-not-again-what-you-mean-by-you're-gonna-nooo-saaave-me kind of swamped.

And I was so happy because today I finally finished my English essay. Spent about an hour compiling the different parts (it was group work).

And it actually was some quality work.

And then.

Thanks to the lack of brain cells.

....

I stupidly deleted the whole file.

Way to go, Vicki!

So I had to type out the whole thing again and of course it wasn't as good as the previous one.

And that just really irks me. Not because I fussy about the perfection of my essays. (I mean, I am fussy, but to a certain point.)

BUT BECAUSE I SPENT LOTS OF TIME ON THE GOOD ONE AND THEN I DELETED IT SO I HAD TO DO IT AGAIN AND THEN ITS NOT SO GOOD WAAAAAAAAA. T_T

Okay, I'm gonna stop before I sound like a complete ass.

So huffed up.

Unscrew the lid...now...no, don't.

Oh, this is so overdue!

I am in an all girls class!

Again!

First form 2, then form 3, then now form 5!

My last year!

Yay!

Just because there's an exclaimation mark there doesn't mean its a happy yay!

I was being sarcastic, in case you couldn't tell!

And the exclaimation marks are because I'm so mad right now thinking about 5B that if I stop (virtual) yelling I might just implode!

I think I might just anyway!

Seriously, if I wanted to be in an all girls class for 3 years out of 5 in high school, I'd just move to SMK Pudu Perempuan (or Perempuan Pudu...yah, whatever it is)!

I'M REALLY ANGRY,  IN CASE YOU STILL COULDN'T TELL!

~ME.

P.S. I'm signing myself up for homeschool tomorrow, hmph. Screw that school!

P.P.S. If God's trying to teach me a lesson, it might take a while to get through my thick and currently angry brain.

P.P.P.S. Terribly Nice, you're really terrible at telling old jokes. =)  Can CNY come faster so that we can have our sushi date? XD  Ahhh...hungry...

Let go and let God.

I was suddenly inspired to blog now at a very unconventional time after reading a terribly nice person's onsugar blog.

So, what have I been up to the past month, where my blogging has been more or less nonexistent?

Well, more people keep up with my facebook page than my blog, so I'm not even gonna bother blogging about that.

So.

2011.

Everyone's been 2011-ing everywhere. Blogs, facebook, twitter, facebook, especially facebook.

Well, its just another year?

I can already imagine what's gonna happen.

We go through 2011, reach 2012, look back on 2011, wonder how we got to 2012, wish we made better use of the time in 2011 and never admit it but secretly wish 2012 hadn't arrived so fast.

That's exactly how I felt about 2010/2011. And I have a feeling I'll be feeling it next year...again.

But I really, really, really don't want to.

So there's only one very simple thing I'm gonna do this year to prevent that.

And that is.....

.....I don't feel like telling you here. If you really wanna know, ask me in private....personally.

I'm in one of those grey-ish, violet-ish moods. Translation: not in my right mind, definitely not thinking clearly and should not be held liable for anything I say here.

Like seriously, I"m thinking of pink clouds now. Pink clouds. That says a LOT about my current sanity status.

Okay I'm gonna sign off before I say something I really regret later on when my aura's shining clear blue.

But before that, the P.S.'s. The P.S.'s are always the most important ones. Never forget the P.S.'s. They are the maksud tersirat in a blog post. The P.S.'s and the title.

Nevermind me. Blame the grey-violet aura.

Goodbye.

P.S. I know everyone's getting sick of me blabbering about my vacation everywhere, facebook and in school, but I really, really can't resist. I really, really, do NOT like snow. I mean, there's a reason why I'm born in July. Definitely a summer baby. Whatever factory made me forgot to put this on my forehead: Made in Malaysia. Suitable for hot weather only. Do not leave unattended in rain or snow.

P.P.S. If you really think I don't care, then I've succeeded and you got fooled.

P.P.P.S. You hated me. You hate me. You talk behind people's back. You backstab without a second thought from friend to friend. But despite that, we still once were...I don't know what to call it. Friends? Yeah, definitely, I think. But I guess neither of us are willing to give each other second chances. So since we're probably never gonna say another word to each other, I truly apologise for all the selfish decisions I made without thinking about your feelings and sincerely wish you well this year. I don't miss you, and I certainly don't want to, but I don't regret our now once-upon-a-time friendship.

P.P.P.P.S. A good liar is someone whom people think is bad at lying.

P.P.P.P.P.S. So many false alarms, I lost count. But I know what you mean to me now. And I was wrong when I said it didn't matter. Because it did. It hurt because it mattered. And I wasn't too late. It was never too late. Because the problem was never me. The problem was you. You just couldn't. Because I'm not... her. I finally understand. And although that doesn't change a single thing at all, its okay. Because now I can move on with life without the thought of you burning through the back of my mind like canvas on fire. That's why I can say I finally understand what it means to love somebody.

And for your info, in case people are as crazy as me, I am NOT referring to buku tunai. He's history. But he's still extremely good looking, yeah. XD Its just too bad the infatuation distraction didn't last, sigh.

P.P.P.P.P.P.S. Seriously, I'm not in the right state of mind now.

P.P.P.P.P.P.P.S. The title of this post is not by me. I heard it from someone a long time ago. I don't remember who though. If anyone remembers or knows, please tell me.

Seven Wonders Of The Ancient World...please?

1. Great Pyramid of Giza
Location: Giza Necropolis, Egypt
Still in existence

2. Hanging Gardens of Babylon

Location: Iraq

Cause of destruction: Earthquake

3. Temple of Artemis at Ephesus

Location: Turkey

Cause of destruction: Arson & plundering

4. Statue of Zeus at Olympia

Location: Olympia, Greece

Cause of destruction: Fire

5. Mausoleum of Halicarnassus
Location: Turkey
Cause of destruction: Flood, earthquake & eventual disassemblement

6. Colossus of Rhodes
Location: Rhodes, Greece
Cause of destruction: Earthquake

7. Lighthouse of Alexandria
Location: Alexandria, Egypt
Cause of destruction: Earthquake

Ahh, I know this sounds insane, but I really, really wanna visit these places before I'm...21. Although that's pretty impossible unless I happen to win a lottery or rob a bank...which is also, well, unlikely.

But still, I just wish I could.