In like 4 hours, I have to wake up and do my last minute packing (a.k.a. finish homework and pack bag!) just to catch the stupid plane to hong kong. Okay, maybe its not stupid, but this is a realll last minute vacation.
Toodles.
Mum's already kicking me off the computer.
~Smart Ass Pants
P.S. I love Yan Teng!! *squeals*
P.P.S. What do I change my MSN password to? Hmm, too many people know my pass, I gotta change it.............................to something I can actually remember.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Slow Me Down
I slipped into Form 3 easily. I wake at 5.30am effortlessly...almost. I pay attention in class...as long as its not The Mole's class. I do homework...most of it. I work on Math...sort of. I practice piano...somewhat. Somewhere between last year and this year, the awkwardness between me and Yu Kit faded...kinda.
Everything was almost mechanical.
Things weren't soulless, it was just indifferent. I tried asking friends about stuff, just to see if it might spark some interest. It doesn't. I don't care who fights with who. I don't care who's dating who. I don't care who has a crush on who. I don't care who's hair got skewered by whatever teacher. I don't care which Form 5 hottie got a new girl. I don't care if she's way more talented than me. I don't care if you don't care. I just wish I cared.
The times I feel alive is at band practices. But when they leave, so do I. I don't even talk much at home.
Things are moving way too fast for me. Last week it was Std. 1, meeting Kelly for the first time. Yesterday it was Std. 5, flipping through Xietin's fashion book. This morning it was Form 1, catching sight of Yu Kit reading Artemis Fowl at recess. Now its Form 3, PMR year. Tomorrow its SPM. Day after is college. Next week I'd be working. Next month, I'd be married and would have to deal with bills and kids. Then I'd grow old and die. And I'd meet God. And most probably go to hell.
Geez I gotta stop this negativity. Being indifferent is bad enough without the pessimistic stuff. I gotta change this indifference.
Time is moving too fast. Its the only thing I care about right now.
~Smartee
P.S. Anger is a prominent emotion. Everyday, you make me more and more angry. You treat me, like I'm junior to you, your sidekick who is so inferior to you, like I'm incapable of doing anything, like I'm incapable of remembering anything, like I'm a toddler who needs you to speak to me with that cute pouty puppish baby voice.
I despise you for it. Maybe one day I might explode and tell you word for word why I am a thousand times worth you and your stinking cute face.
But you know I would never do that. Because I value our friendship too much.
Everything was almost mechanical.
Things weren't soulless, it was just indifferent. I tried asking friends about stuff, just to see if it might spark some interest. It doesn't. I don't care who fights with who. I don't care who's dating who. I don't care who has a crush on who. I don't care who's hair got skewered by whatever teacher. I don't care which Form 5 hottie got a new girl. I don't care if she's way more talented than me. I don't care if you don't care. I just wish I cared.
The times I feel alive is at band practices. But when they leave, so do I. I don't even talk much at home.
Things are moving way too fast for me. Last week it was Std. 1, meeting Kelly for the first time. Yesterday it was Std. 5, flipping through Xietin's fashion book. This morning it was Form 1, catching sight of Yu Kit reading Artemis Fowl at recess. Now its Form 3, PMR year. Tomorrow its SPM. Day after is college. Next week I'd be working. Next month, I'd be married and would have to deal with bills and kids. Then I'd grow old and die. And I'd meet God. And most probably go to hell.
Geez I gotta stop this negativity. Being indifferent is bad enough without the pessimistic stuff. I gotta change this indifference.
Time is moving too fast. Its the only thing I care about right now.
~Smartee
P.S. Anger is a prominent emotion. Everyday, you make me more and more angry. You treat me, like I'm junior to you, your sidekick who is so inferior to you, like I'm incapable of doing anything, like I'm incapable of remembering anything, like I'm a toddler who needs you to speak to me with that cute pouty puppish baby voice.
I despise you for it. Maybe one day I might explode and tell you word for word why I am a thousand times worth you and your stinking cute face.
But you know I would never do that. Because I value our friendship too much.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Temporary band = Awesome Performance
I think this is like the 5th time I performed at leisure mall. I actually kinda like performing there, 'cuz no matter how bad the sound system is, there's like 4 floors of people looking down at you, and the feeling is really...great.
Warning: Long blabbering about meaningless stuff.
1st Practice at Pau's house - Sunday/4th Jan
We actually caught on to the 1st song: The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart pretty fast, thanks to amazing guitarists Yu Kit and Kelly and awesome bassist Ben. And of course Pau, never forget the singers. =P
2nd Practice at my house - Sunday/11th Jan
Spending 7-8 hours with Pauline, Kelly, Ben and Yu Kit can be really tiring, frustrating, irritating, maddening but also fun and even funnier. Nav was there too just for fun, though he wasn't part of the performance. Working on the 2nd song: Mariah Carey ft Whitney Houston - When You Believe was tricky, cuz' it was waayy harder to play and sing.
3rd Practice at I-Melody - Friday 16th Jan
Kelly couldn't make it. Pau had a 'fashion show' for the three of us; she didn't know what to wear for performance day. We practiced both songs like mad. Unfortunately, I was rather emo that day (no idea why) and I think I ruined the whole practice. Go on and scream at me...
4th Practice at my house - Saturday 17th Jan
Pau couldn't make it. Jamming two days in a row didn't mean our practice intensified. In fact, we did nothing except play through twice. The rest of the time was spent on my poor computer watching Ben play Heli Attack 3 and jamming other songs. All our repertoires were different though, so we didn't have much choice. Bad news was we didn't practice much. Good news was we had fun (I did at least) and I got the guitar...just for one stinking night.
PERFORMANCE DAY 18th Jan 2009. Emergency ditto ditto ditto.
Reached I-melody at 10 with Pau. The guys reached at 11. Almost at the last moment, there was some emergency and we had to fill in someone's place on short notice so that means 3 songs. Rushed through Demi Lovato - This Is Me. Ben suppose to play drums for that song using the keyboard. Wait, don't think so highly of him yet, all he had to do was press buttons!! Finished practicing within 45 minutes (this is pure record).
Headed over to Leisure Mall, went backstage, watched the guys eat McD with mad envy (Pau wouldn't let me touch the fries cuz it suppose to hurt our voices or something according to her). Kelly came a while later and we got out of backstage cuz it was getting too crowded. Sat near one of the shops and started practicing This Is Me. People were staring like we're psycho. I mean its not everyday you see a gang of teenagers dressed in black and red sitting on the floor strumming guitars and singing.
The performance itself was not very good, because the sound system was bad, therefore we couldn't hear ourselves and our vocals were out of tune AND Ben didn't play drums on the keyboard after all, that chicken. Just cuz he couldn't find the buttons. But it was still great and fun
I think the whole performance lasted roughly 15 minutes and we ended with This Is Me along with Yu Kit's mad strumming at the end. There was some encore shouting...not bad. Hmm.
Biggest thanks to:
Pauline - because you sang so well with me.
Kelly - because even when you didn't think you could, you tried...and suceeded.
Yu Kit - because of your awesome guitar skills.
Ben - because you didn't fong fei kei this time! jk. chill.
Pearly - for being so understanding, supportive and cheering (sort of) from the audience.
Sin Mun - for your cold criticism...well, its how I improve. Sincere, really.
Jeff - you did a great job at cheering for the girl you tried to pikat but couldn't. COUGH PAU COUGH. Nvm, forget I said that.
Pau's cousins - For screaming and yelling and shouting and screeching for an encore
My cousin bro - For his awesome photo taking and support
Pau's parents - For being there, so supportive and funny and lenient with Pauline's "curfew"!
Ben's parents - For being there and so friendly, supportive, etc, too many to list.
Yu Kit's parents - For being there and for actually sending their son to practices. Jk, kinda.
My parents - 'cause they took awesome recordings and always suggested ways on how to improve the performance.
This is like, the best band performance so far. I watched the recordings; This Is Me is the best song! Buy it from me! BUY BUY BUY!
I love playing in a band. Especially a band that includes the people above.
There's a lot of conflict going on during practices, but it turned out great...I think.
The End.
~Smartee
P.S. I wish you were there. But you weren't, so just too bad for us.
Warning: Long blabbering about meaningless stuff.
1st Practice at Pau's house - Sunday/4th Jan
We actually caught on to the 1st song: The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart pretty fast, thanks to amazing guitarists Yu Kit and Kelly and awesome bassist Ben. And of course Pau, never forget the singers. =P
2nd Practice at my house - Sunday/11th Jan
Spending 7-8 hours with Pauline, Kelly, Ben and Yu Kit can be really tiring, frustrating, irritating, maddening but also fun and even funnier. Nav was there too just for fun, though he wasn't part of the performance. Working on the 2nd song: Mariah Carey ft Whitney Houston - When You Believe was tricky, cuz' it was waayy harder to play and sing.
3rd Practice at I-Melody - Friday 16th Jan
Kelly couldn't make it. Pau had a 'fashion show' for the three of us; she didn't know what to wear for performance day. We practiced both songs like mad. Unfortunately, I was rather emo that day (no idea why) and I think I ruined the whole practice. Go on and scream at me...
4th Practice at my house - Saturday 17th Jan
Pau couldn't make it. Jamming two days in a row didn't mean our practice intensified. In fact, we did nothing except play through twice. The rest of the time was spent on my poor computer watching Ben play Heli Attack 3 and jamming other songs. All our repertoires were different though, so we didn't have much choice. Bad news was we didn't practice much. Good news was we had fun (I did at least) and I got the guitar...just for one stinking night.
PERFORMANCE DAY 18th Jan 2009. Emergency ditto ditto ditto.
Reached I-melody at 10 with Pau. The guys reached at 11. Almost at the last moment, there was some emergency and we had to fill in someone's place on short notice so that means 3 songs. Rushed through Demi Lovato - This Is Me. Ben suppose to play drums for that song using the keyboard. Wait, don't think so highly of him yet, all he had to do was press buttons!! Finished practicing within 45 minutes (this is pure record).
Headed over to Leisure Mall, went backstage, watched the guys eat McD with mad envy (Pau wouldn't let me touch the fries cuz it suppose to hurt our voices or something according to her). Kelly came a while later and we got out of backstage cuz it was getting too crowded. Sat near one of the shops and started practicing This Is Me. People were staring like we're psycho. I mean its not everyday you see a gang of teenagers dressed in black and red sitting on the floor strumming guitars and singing.
The performance itself was not very good, because the sound system was bad, therefore we couldn't hear ourselves and our vocals were out of tune AND Ben didn't play drums on the keyboard after all, that chicken. Just cuz he couldn't find the buttons. But it was still great and fun
I think the whole performance lasted roughly 15 minutes and we ended with This Is Me along with Yu Kit's mad strumming at the end. There was some encore shouting...not bad. Hmm.
Biggest thanks to:
Pauline - because you sang so well with me.
Kelly - because even when you didn't think you could, you tried...and suceeded.
Yu Kit - because of your awesome guitar skills.
Ben - because you didn't fong fei kei this time! jk. chill.
Pearly - for being so understanding, supportive and cheering (sort of) from the audience.
Sin Mun - for your cold criticism...well, its how I improve. Sincere, really.
Jeff - you did a great job at cheering for the girl you tried to pikat but couldn't. COUGH PAU COUGH. Nvm, forget I said that.
Pau's cousins - For screaming and yelling and shouting and screeching for an encore
My cousin bro - For his awesome photo taking and support
Pau's parents - For being there, so supportive and funny and lenient with Pauline's "curfew"!
Ben's parents - For being there and so friendly, supportive, etc, too many to list.
Yu Kit's parents - For being there and for actually sending their son to practices. Jk, kinda.
My parents - 'cause they took awesome recordings and always suggested ways on how to improve the performance.
This is like, the best band performance so far. I watched the recordings; This Is Me is the best song! Buy it from me! BUY BUY BUY!
I love playing in a band. Especially a band that includes the people above.
There's a lot of conflict going on during practices, but it turned out great...I think.
The End.
~Smartee
P.S. I wish you were there. But you weren't, so just too bad for us.
Mini Update
I know I know! All of you miss me right? I haven't been updating because guess why?
No reason, just haven't been on the computer much. Hmm, lots of fun stuff since I last updated.
For one, Christmas was great, but I was down with the four-in-one sick package (flu, cough, sorethroat...*drumroll* FEVER) so I had to miss the christmas high tea. Sucks. Christmas Eve was really fun, had a great time with churchy friends and a few others that came.
New Year's Eve was great, but Angelo annoyed the heck outta me, so the street countdown was kinda not that fun anymore. Nicole and Ashley were there too. Hanging out with them just made me realise how different we are now. They've grown into what most of my current friends would call la la mui while I'm just that average teen, not very popular, not very funny, not very fun, etc.
Hard to think we used to be 9 months old infants sucking the pacifier and playing in a crib together. Later on as toddlers, playing with soft toys and stuff. I don't think we actually played with dolls or barbies. And then we grew up to adolescents and running around in shopping malls, swimming and playing in the wide playground became our favourite past time.
Now we talk about boys, music and books. The more mature stuff. I don't miss them anymore, but I like to think back once in a while.
End of Update.
~ Smartee
P.S. School reopened weeks ago. It wasn't that bad. But I still struggle with homework.
P.P.S. You don't understand how hard I try to demolish this reputation I've built up. You just laugh at me.
P.P.P.S. THE GUITAR'S GONE! NOOOOO!.
No reason, just haven't been on the computer much. Hmm, lots of fun stuff since I last updated.
For one, Christmas was great, but I was down with the four-in-one sick package (flu, cough, sorethroat...*drumroll* FEVER) so I had to miss the christmas high tea. Sucks. Christmas Eve was really fun, had a great time with churchy friends and a few others that came.
New Year's Eve was great, but Angelo annoyed the heck outta me, so the street countdown was kinda not that fun anymore. Nicole and Ashley were there too. Hanging out with them just made me realise how different we are now. They've grown into what most of my current friends would call la la mui while I'm just that average teen, not very popular, not very funny, not very fun, etc.
Hard to think we used to be 9 months old infants sucking the pacifier and playing in a crib together. Later on as toddlers, playing with soft toys and stuff. I don't think we actually played with dolls or barbies. And then we grew up to adolescents and running around in shopping malls, swimming and playing in the wide playground became our favourite past time.
Now we talk about boys, music and books. The more mature stuff. I don't miss them anymore, but I like to think back once in a while.
End of Update.
~ Smartee
P.S. School reopened weeks ago. It wasn't that bad. But I still struggle with homework.
P.P.S. You don't understand how hard I try to demolish this reputation I've built up. You just laugh at me.
P.P.P.S. THE GUITAR'S GONE! NOOOOO!.
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